Sunday Funday

the old sayings hold much truth….

if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it

you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink

you can’t make someone change

Changes can only occur when you want them to, this doesn’t apply to weight loss and fitness only. If you want better relationships you must foster them, happier children – give them your time, advancement at work – put in the hours…so when I stepped on the scale two weeks ago and saw 236, I cried.

 How did I get here again?

I know the answer to the question, I stopped caring about what I put into my body, I forgot the purpose of food was to nourish my body. I continue to let food be my outlet for success, failure, pain, confusion…everything.

The best part of this epiphany is that I also know what works, and though it be a sacrifice, I knew it’s what I needed to help me have a sense of order, one thing I have ultimate control over, something that depends on no one but myself.

On Sunday January 20th I joined Weight Watchers www.weightwatchers.com/index.aspx  , again. I figured that on a Sunday morning the group would be small, and I wouldn’t be missing or having to choose something over the meeting or worry about where the girls would be so I could go, this is my church, the meetings in the past have been one of the key components to my success. I need to hear that other people are succeeding, I need to share with people who more than understand the struggle that is obesity.

I dressed in the lightest clothing a January day would permit, after having talked to Scott about how much I needed this and receiving not only his blessing but his support, a kiss on the cheek and his promise to help me in moments of weakness.

Was I shocked to walk in and see the room packed, I mean 80 people probably! I filled out my paperwork and sat down. The meeting started and I was immediately drawn in. The leader wasn’t 85 (kudos to those leaders who still go when they are older and have the courage to stand before a group and try to inspire, I have been to my fair share of meetings and I know what kind of personality it takes to keep me there). This lady was amazing, it wasn’t a leader and a group, it was a friend talking to her friends – I found Sunday Funday! A mix of women and men, old and young, mothers and daughters, friends, strangers, people at their first meeting and people celebrating years of maintenance.  I felt the leaders passion in her language and action, I could feel my success starting and I was 30 minutes in. The program is slightly different than before, I no longer hate the 2 point banana, the apps for my phone make it so very easy to stay on track, I don’t need a big purse to carry my notebook and point calculator.

This time I also begin with a different perspective:

1) I have children, this isn’t just about me. The last time it was me and my ex-husband who was rarely home I had 60+ minutes a day to give to exercise, I had time in the evening to labor over a healthy dinner and then sit and eat it. This time I have to make time for me to be successful, the meeting is the first step. So I am planning meals, I plan backward, what will the kids eat, that I can cook the night before or in 20 minutes or less of walking in the door, then I load the rest of the day with what will meet the rest of my points, and yes some day’s its only fruit and yogurt but I love that so it’s not really a sacrifice.

2) Real life will happen. There will be times when I have to make the best of a less than ideal situation.  I can’t be angry at myself, I can only accept and move forward – I AM NOT PERFECT.

3) My goal is realistic.

I have been blessed for my monthly pass to be a gift that I am getting from a third party, for that I am so very thankful 🙂

 

So here is me after my second week of being on the plan:

Starting weight 236#(left) 225.8(right -10.2#)

I have lost over 10 pounds in two weeks. This is not typical loss, not for the plan, not for me. My expectation of myself is 1 pound a week, slow and healthy loss.

 

 

 

 

2003 169#’s – still considered overweight pants are a size 6

 

 

 

My biggest struggle is the knowledge that I will never reach lifetime without a Dr.’s note. I am not a small person and the last time I was in the program I looked like this and I was not at my goal weight – I was about 10 pounds away from it; at this weight WW said I was still overweight. I was a size 4-6 depending if I was wearing pants or a skirt, you didn’t want to see the naked version, I was literally skin and bones. This is something I have difficulty accepting, to be this small and still considered overweight – I look terrible. I know this. I know where I look healthy and feel good.

 

 

My goal is 175#, at that weight I am about a size 10.

My wedding rings will fit comfortably

I will be ok wearing shorts (I haven’t worn them in 5 years)

I have a pair of jeans in the closet I am positive will fit along with 10 other pairs of pants/tops and shoes.

 

 

 

 

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Follow Progress not Perfection on WordPress.com
Follow Progress not Perfection on WordPress.com
%d bloggers like this: